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I am so bored and sleepy and have no feeling to do any works right now. This morning I was waking up a bit late, I didnt manage to get my gym bag ready. Supposedly today I should go to the gym. But I think I will go tomorrow.

I hope I could see my big guy tonite cuz I miss him to bits. Its crazy. I feel like to see him everyday. Although just for a glance. Damn I hate this feeling.

Im trying so much not to msg or call him. I dun wanna be the psycho gf.
I wanna be the cool gf but I love him to bits.

Ahh the L word!.


Anyway, damn.. I was out of scope. I am blogging now eventhough I should be working.. and yea I got tons of work to do but I choose not :D Some people are still having lunch.. ( 2 hours.. yea right :P ) I didnt take heavy lunch. I got tuna doughnut Mom bought yesterday and a pack of Milo. It's kinda scary but I kinda have this feeling like losing the appetite. I dun feel like eating heavy things.. I only can imagining the super nice french fries. Shoestring. Extra crispy. Nyumms. But to imagine the greasyness.. I hold my imagination.

Gosh I feel like in misery. I miss somebody so far ( yea .. distant!!) I have no feeling to eat, I am tired of working out.. my nose is a total distraction. Owh yea, I should go to the clinic?

Owh maybe tomorrow and get MC sekali?

Okie, back to the issue. What was the issue again?



I need my bed.



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