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0645 hrs : I heard my alarm. My devastating dream ended. It was a real crap. Too much drama and tears and feeling of regrets. I woke up with Nabil on my mind cuz he did call me up last nite and I was aslept while talking to him. Alarm snoozed.

0705 hrs : Woke up and drank a glass of water and headed to shower.

0827 hrs : punched in the office. great! no late.

1000 hrs : missed GG. googled his full name and accidently found this blog with GG wedding pics in UIA. beautiful pictures. I started shaking. Close the window and grabbed my phone to the bathroom. I called Mimi. She didnt picked up. I called Nabil. No answer. I called Zai, she was in the meeting. I got numb. But I couldnt cry.

1100 hrs : texted Mama. She replied with some words of wisdom. I love her. I cried.

1200 hrs : lunch with Kak Zu cuz promised her for lunch in AnW. Tried to cover up the sadness.

1600 hrs : GG texted for tonite's plan. I bombarded him with a lot of question. Why u lied? what have i done? I could do any works. I wanna go home.

1730 hrs : went back but stopped at Sogo for Arip's wedding gift. I dunno how I would be at the wedding. I still can picture GG's wedding pics. It was devastating. :( Zai teman me to shop. I told her everything. I am so regret.

1930 : Mimi called. She gave some positive words but I lost hope. If he really meant for me than there will be explainantion but.. I guess .. this is it. Mimi been a real sweetheart. I love her.

2100 hrs : Home at last. Directly blogging to pour all the sadness and cant just wait to cry in the shower. Hmmmmmm

2200 hrs : Nabil was online. He listened. even made some effort to see the pics. I felt a bit relief he was there for me. I heart him.



Its sad to be me, kan?







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