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Ku tak peduli
Bila ku benar-benar cinta mati
Ku tak peduli

Ku memang begini
Bila ku benar-benar cinta mati
Ku tak peduli
Apa saja yang ku inginkan kamu rela

Bukannya aku takut akan kehilangan dirimu
Tapi aku takut kehilangan cintamu
Mungkin saja saat itu kau mempermainkan aku
Seakan kau bisa membalas cintaku

Kau takkan mengerti
Yang selama ini aku rasakan, pasti
Kau tak peduli
Bila saja yang ku inginkan kamu rela


this is too deep. im still sad. its really hurts.. sometimes i could just stand and do nothing and I dunno. I feel like not so healthy. Im afraid my BP got high and sometimes I feel like my head gonna explode. and if I die tomorrow, Im taking his love with me. cuz I believe, i still love him no matter how much i try to deny it and no matter how much i try to fill my hole with other guys.

i dunno. just leave me alone. this is so so hurts.




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