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we try to hold on....

3 AM in the wee hours.

I slept earlier than usual. Around 10 pm. Well nothing much recently, no texting session, no chat session and obviously no calls. Nabil was letting me being independent since I guess he thinks I wud be fine. Well, I also wondering if he is seeing other girl. I mean... I gotta be prepared anyway kan?

At work, there were still a few session of bitching about GG with few friends who just found out. Not just gfs, but bf. I just need some guys opinion and I am glad I got E. E could be this snobbish boyfriend I ever had, but I couldnt deny.. he was a great lister. He could sum up things like this..

who knows amy, the wedding was planned and he gotta follow his parents wish. Then he is not happy. He isnt living with her, maybe he's getting a divorced or already am. Thus he is not cheating on her, and he is not lying to you.


ha ha so good to be true. anyway would that be so good if its true? Although I hate him so so much now, I dun wanna see him unHappy. Is dat so? I mean.. of course, he used to be your other half kan. Honestly, if he is Happy I wud be sad but at least he is happy. And there would be my time later. I know.

argh too much to analyze. OMG tonight is a real hot!

I really miss Nabil at this very moment though I dunno what to talk to him. I think I shared so much. I feel like to call him though.. but who knows who's goin to pick up the call this hours.. could be the girl beside him now? who knows?

Shit. I need a new attention.

Okay its really hot. I think I gotta now. Big day tomorrow... erm, practically today.


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