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You're My Superstar.

I am watching this Greatest American Dog reality TV show. U know, when dogs and their owners compete to be the Greatest Dog. I think its entertaining, just like the Super Sweet 16 Bash by MTV :)

So, I sound happy ya? I dunno. I skipped the work today. As if its my own company, but I was sick and lied on the bed the whole day. No more puffy eyes I hope, but a super huge arms .. hmm

So, the previous entry was made around 3 am. I got to bed earlier, around 10 something. Around 2 something I was awake and couldnt sleep. So I blogged and tried to sleep. Before I did, I left some online hugs to this guy I always do whenever I missed him. Eversince post Eid we got reconnected, we didnt talk much. We didnt even had a chance to meet up, but I did cyberly hug him whenever I missed him. Even when I met GG for the 1st time this time, I send this guy a hug and hope he could got online and stop me from seeing my ex, who obviously now a big mistake.

Whatever it is, while trying to sleeep.. subconsciously I heard a buzz sound. He was online. We talked.. and I was very very happy. Thanks for making me happy. Its all that matter now, to be with someone whos making me happy. :)

but who knows how long that wud last... I need to have Starbucks tomorrow.

hmm since today Im basically online the whole day.. in fact this laptop alive since 230 am this morning :D I still have my chat window with my fave guy currently on my taskbar. So sayang to close it down :D Im pathetic.

Well yea, I did share the little drama with my cousins. Hmm and because of that, tonite I felt like looking at the wedding pics again. I think I am strong enough to actually see them. Hmm.. maybe cuz I missed GG? who knows. I just wanna see his face anyway.. I was thinking to say this and that, but.. I decided not to. This is my blog. The main character is me. Not to bitch about people, right. I mean, whatever he did to me, I am not sure if its already forgiven.. but I let God takes care of it. He is The Most Justice. All I want is a happy life and someday with a guy who love me for me, and who make me happy. Who love my smile and would always make me smile. Who thinks Im still beautiful although I might look like Rhino in a mud. Who think Im sexy with extra flesh and cellulite thighs. Someone who I wanna spend the rest of Sunday morning with.

hmm.. Im goin to bed. Sleep. Goin to work tomorrow. Hope the period pain will stop. It is maniac. !!! Gotta leave some love hugs for my fave guy before I sleep. Till then, i heart you. Pray for my happiness and thanks for the care.


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